To experience and To Share

I visited a country of my dreams (Belize), I took this picture while I was on the boat waiting for it to start sailing from Caye Caulker to San Pedro. When all of a sudden, this view was so beautiful. I took this picture, when I got to my hotel room the first thing, I wanted to do was to call my sister but was sad because I couldn’t, I wanted to cry because I miss her and wanted to share this moment with her but I cannot. I have plenty of experience that typically I would call her to share and we would laugh together but here I am navigating life without sharing them with her. Now, I just think of her and when the need to share comes, sometimes I cry and sometimes I am angry and other times I just pause and continue, I feel all these things and still navigate my day.

People don’t understand and may never understand the feeling of losing someone you love and loves you back without condition or something to lose. When you lose someone, you love, it will not really hit you until you experience something and the urge to share that moment comes then you realize the gravity of losing a loved one. I lost my sister, it feels like I have a big hole in my heart, and I have come to accept that this hole will never be filled; I will experience many more of Lifes beauty and will never be able to share it with her again. It is an unimaginable pain to feel but it is the reality and facts of life.